What Turned me Gay (not really): Bgeast turned me gay

Bgeast turned me gay, in case it wasn't obvious enough. Bgeast transformed my casual gay porn viewing into an obsession. The company turned a minor interest into a full blown passion,  and ignited something within me. Without Bgeast exposing me to the rich tapestry of erotic wrestling styles I'd be a very different person with a limited world view of guys having plain vanilla sex.   And what a shame all that would've been. 

The place that started it all for me ...

What turned me gay (not really) ... 

This post, inspired by the sidelineland.com blog, takes a tongue and cheek look into "what made me gay (not really)" and in thinking about gay wrestling, it's helpful to go back to what Bgeast gets right.

I'm still nostalgic for those older Bgeast catalogs

Bgeast was focused on the gay wrestling artform and less so on the porn

It wasn't the first gay porn I found on the internet but somehow it was the last one that seemed to matter.  Of course I had seen men having sex with other men on the internet and I had even seen other gay "wrestling" sites out there but Bgeast was something different.  Something both real and fantasy come to life.  It felt as though the creators of Bgeast had somehow downloaded all my desires, everything I defined as passion, and laid it out there for all to see.  

I found can-am and while Ioved Jimmy Dean and the studio's high production values, something was just missing ...

Bgeast was different.  Sex wasn't the main attraction, in fact, most videos didn't show nudity.  Gay wrestling was the focus and it showed up with a singular devotion that suited me.  Bgeast made me realize the importance that passion played in sex.  Sounds strange right? So bear with me because I'm only realizing this about myself also.  

A story told through wrestling 

While porn focused on just the sex and just getting your rocks off, gay wrestling told an epic tale of strength.  Each match was a give-and-take of emotional highs and lows, making the ultimate payoff all the more worthwhile.  Like a thrilling movie only showing me clips of the trailer, conventional porn left me empty and wanting more.  The climax, if you will, was only satisfying if there was some conflict involved in the pay off.  Who will win? How will the match end?  Sure in all wrestling matches, the stories may all be similar, but there was just something I yearned for in those gay wrestling stories of lust, humiliation, and triumph.  Other porn just seemed one dimensional by comparison. 

Huge fan of Harley from Sean Cody but I needed more.  To this day some people only focus on the sex and they are missing out because not all porn is sex.

Ryan was another stud I enjoyed in porn but was aching to see wrestle, even for a second.

 

Now Harley in the wrestling ring is something I could get behind! Not Bgeast but Nrw.

Instead of guys rushing through their love making, gay wrestling offered a lot more intimacy - the struggle, the humiliation, the heartbreak, all contained with a match.  I don't blame the guys of porn or conventional porn studios, but there was just not enough there to grab my interest.  Gay wrestling told stories about all the triumphs of human emotion and Bgeast was story telling at its best.  

Take for example, Flyboy versus Jose:

Flyboy v Jose - Bgeast gay wrestling at its best and a masterclass in storytelling. 

We begin with two gladiators circling each other - Our men size each other up and we can almost feel the testosterone wafting between these two.  

Our men test each other's strength.  There can be only one winner and the one thing we can all be sure of is that the loser will be thoroughly humiliated.

*Cheap shot*
Flyboy: You'll pay for that one ...

 

There's rising action between our two fighters and we wait breathlessly to see who comes out on top.  While our story may be refashioned countless times, we are never quite sure who or how our victor will triumph.

A pin or submission closes our match and signals the alpha wrestler for us... or does it?

Bonus points for the double cross or a second climax with our heel stealing victory away from the hot young hero.

Falling action - how does our winner take what he wants and how far will the humiliation go? The last moments of our match cap off an incredible match and leave us sharing in our heel's satisfaction.  

All of these factors were missing in conventional porn.  Gay wrestling went beyond foreplay to excite my imagination and took it beyond its limits.  Bgeast knew how to tell a good story and led me to places I never knew porn could take me.

Wanting what I can't have

Further teasing my thirst for wrestling was the fact that I couldn't have it all at once.  Bgeast had been around for a minute so their impressive back catalogs were sealed away behind VHS tapes I had no access to, making me want them even more.  Each week, every Thursday, I'd log onto the Bgeast Arena and pray that a long lost match would be available on demand.  I waited years for a few matches to appear...

Derek DaSilva v Lukas Skott: I wanted a long time to see this match...

I have vivid memories of logging onto the site, scanning for a few select matches before being flooded with joy when I saw them appear.  Matches from Flyboy, Lukas Skott, Chase, Marky Mark, and Tory Baker, were the ones I longed for.  Then when I finally found them it was like Christmas morning ... another seemingly unobtainable match was found further completing my gay wrestling journey.

Troy Baker v the Sheriff 

Every Thursday I hoped to see this show up on-demand.

Marky Mark v Dan Donovan
After years of waiting I finally found the match I had been dying to see.

Like a ritual, Thursdays were the day I prayed for the Bgeast matches I longed for to appear. When my prayers were answered, it was a feeling like no other.  

Porn is a fling but gay wrestling is passion 

It's clear when hearing the men of bgeast talk about their journeys that gay wrestling is pure passion.  They say you only have one great love in your life, and for these guys, they’ve found it. Sure, wrestling might just be a job for some—even gay wrestling can feel like work—but when it’s done right, when every move clicks into place and the chemistry is undeniable, it’s as if this is what they were born to do.

Kid Vicious: Even while having sex with guys I'd be thinking about wrestling because that's what I needed to do to get turned on. 

And finally, figuring out why I love gay wrestling is the whole purpose of this blog. Understanding why I’m drawn to the fight between men, why I see it as intimate as any kiss, and why the act of testing each other through wrestling resonates so deeply. As Kid Leopard once said, "It is the most intimate two men ever are with one another," and that quote echoes in my mind every time I crave that connection. In truth, my so-called guy-wrestling-addiction is much more than that—it’s a guy-wrestling-passion.

To share the immortal words of Mr. Shane McCall:  

Shane McCall: ... they said I validated them in being who they were.  They didn't feel weird.  They didn't feel like a misfit or out of a community. 

You see, it’s not really an addiction—it’s all connected. The intimate stories, the longing for matches just out of reach, and the undeniable passion that is gay wrestling. It’s a journey as unique to me as it is to all of you, and without a doubt, it’s something that shaped me (though not really turn me gay… or did it?).